...since I've posted here. Oh well. I knew it would die eventually, although it obviously isn't completely dead if I'm posting now. It will be soon though, don't worry.
Anyway, since I'm posting... Not much has happened recently. Well, two things happened, and they were big things, but that's a small quantity for such a long time to have not posted. First thing, I got to see Britt and Amanda!! Finally! Honestly, being with the two of them for the day was the happiest I've been in a loooooong time. I mean, really long. We went to see Forbidden Kingdom (with Jackie Chan and Jet Li), then we got some pizza, then we wandered back to Britt's, having some odd conversations along the way. At one point, I spotted a pile of turd on the ground, so I stopped next to it, took a pose pointing at it and let loose with a cry of "POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!!" Also, I got plenty of hugs from Britt and Amanda, so the day was extra nice. Later that night, talking to Britt on the phone, I wondered something. Since I like her, and she (for some reason) likes me, what's to stop us from being a couple? Apparently she has some reasons (which she posted on her LJ) so for now it shall not be. My reasons, if she cares, are that she used to be going out with Sam, who's my best friend, and that I'm afraid that something could happen between us like with Amanda and I. However, I trust Britt enough that she won't do something like that, so the second reason is void.
Second thing that happened is that last night, it's about 8:00 so Britt should be calling soon. I wait for like, 20 minutes and she hasn't called, so I call her. She picks up, we talk for a minute, and then... Hey, wait a minute. "Britt, are you crying?" So instantly I was really worried, because Britt doesn't cry very easily at all, so something really horrible must have happened to her. Apparently her parents got into a HUGE fight, her dad packed up his stuff and left, and her mom went across the street, Adam went to walk the dog, Britt was alone there. Very soon I'm crying as well, because I'm worried about her even though she tells me not to be. I'm a failure at saying comforting things, so I just try to talk to her as I normally would, to at least get her mind off of what's going on with her. That sorta works, and I manage to get her to laugh.
And I talked to her for most of lunch today, and she's doing much better than last night, so I'm happy. Jimmy (her dad) came home, so yarrr. Neither of us got much sleep though, and she got to stay home from school due to that. So now I shall wait for her to call in about half an hour!!! Waiting away!!

So this meme is like, I got 'tagged' by Amanda, so I have to write 10 things about me. Then I have to tag 10 people, but fuck that part.
1. Without music, I'd have given up on life completely. The lyrics I posted in last nights entry apply to me as well as Britt. "The dashboard melted but we still have the radio."
2. I'm constantly thinking about everything that happens to pop into my head. The only exceptions to this are when I'm playing video games or listening to music.
3. I haven't been truly happy for years. I mean, there's happy like "Yay, I get to see friends I rarely see. Happy." or like "Yay, Amanda's going out with me. Happy." and whatever, but like, then there's just true happiness, where nothing can bring you down. I don't exactly remember when this last happened to me, but it was many years ago.
4. I always need something to play with. Rubik's Cube, a pen, elastics, a guitar pick. Anything. It helps me concentrate better.
5. Honestly, when I asked Amanda out and she said yes, I wasn't like, ecstatic. Or really anything. I know, odd that the girl I love actually was going out with me (even though we didn't do anything together. At all.) and I didn't really care at the start. It wasn't until she posted a thing of her LJ about how she apparently felt about me that I was happy. Not truly happy, of course, but happy.
6. I don't get angry at people ever. Sure, I might yell and tell them to fuck off, kill themselves, etc. but I'm not angry. One time I hid one of the Xbox controllers so my brother couldn't hide it on me, and he gets all bitchy and tells my dad, he goes on some huge rampage and yelling at me and shit. The whole time I'm completely calm about it, never even raising my voice while my dad's yelling as loud as he can.
7. I have no goals in life. Never had. No idea what I want to be when I grow up. Nothing I want to do. All I know is that I want a job where I can still see my good friends (i.e. Britt, Amanda, Sam, Kenny, Russell, Brett, others) regularly.
8. Part of me only wanted to be able to solve a 4x4x4 Rubik's Cube so people would actually recognize me at all. Most people see me with a regular Cube, and they're like "You look fast, can you beat Mike?" and I can't, so they're like, "Aw."
9. When I play video games, I'm usually not very serious in it. Like, it's all just for fun, I don't care. And when I actually get serious, I tend to do worse than usual.
10. If I could have one wish, it would be that I could spend a day with Britt, Amanda and Sam doing whatever, playing video games, chatting, laughing, watching movies (Star Wars maybe? I haven't seen the original ones. Noob....). And it would also have to be a snowy winter day so we can have a snowball fight. There would also have to be hugs from both Britt and Amanda. Not Sam. Never. I might catch being a hippie from him. XD
So yarrr.... ON TO MY DAY.
I woke up. I ate half a waffle for breakfast. I go to school and get to class like, ten minutes late. As I'm coming in the side door of the school where the smokers all hang out, Mr. Philips (the VP) is... saying something. I was listening to Stockholm Syndrome by Muse (loudest song on my iPod) at high volume, so I couldn't hear.
We had some assembly that lasted most of periods 1 and 2. I took my Cube along so I wasn't bored, nor did I have to pay attention. After the assembly, science class. Easy stuff. Then I had to miss most of lunch to write a test I missed yesterday. It was easy though, so no worries.
I got home and immediately called Britt. After 20 minutes or so, history class go to. Boring class.
After school called Britt again, we talked for an hour. Then I played Halo 2 for the rest of the night until now. I was playing with one guy, and he was getting pissed 'cause I kept beating him because apparently I was lagging, despite my good connection. After a bit, we're playing matchmaking, and he says how he delevels (intentionally loses matches so his rank goes down so he plays against noobs) for his girlfriends. I say "I bet they find that very sexy." He says he forgot to do something, so we return to pregame lobby. I start to ask "Was it to boot me?" but I got booted before I could finish.
So that's my day. Mostly lame, but oh well. Don't judge me. So good night!
Oh, and Amanda, please call me whenever tomorrow (April 11) 'cause I won't be at the computer for most of the time and I will be home and I want to talk to you much.

Roar. I'm going slightly insane. If you are Britt or Amanda (which you should be if you're reading this) then you can probably guess why. If you aren't one of them (or you're too tired to think) it's the lack of being able to see Britt and Amanda. So henceforth, I'm keeping a counter of how long it's been since I've seen them, and one for how many days until I'll (probably) see them. Britt's grounded until like, the 24 of April... And the first weekend after that is the 26-27, so that's like, 17 days. Actually, 16 since it's almost a new day.
So anyway... It's been pretty boring for me recently, aside from long phone conversations with Britt. Every day. Due to me being amazing, she is going as a lion for Halloween and she has to go "Roar." at every house. MUAHAHAHAHA. Okay, maybe not every house, but often. And it will be cute. Although if she really doesn't want to, I'll be nice and not force her to. 'Cause I'm nice. WHO SAYS I'M NOT?!!!
I were sick today, also. It wasn't fun at the beginning 'cause my voice had flown away, but it came back in  time to talk to Britt. Yay. Oh, and this song, Dashboard by Modest Mouse, reminds me of Britt because of one line. "The dashboard melted but we still have the radio." That is so her.
Yarrr, so I should be working on my history assignment that's due TOMORROW but oh well. It's gonna be late. And I can use my sickness to get an extra day, maybe. Or I'll just say I forgot to print it off. Whatever works. Meh. I'll be going to bed soon, so it'll have to be finished tomorrow. By which I mean done entirely tomorrow. So good night!

Amanda: 60 days
Britt: 32 days
16 days until happy

So we (myself, Amanda) were supposed to be going to Britt's tomorrow, and her mom was fine with that, but then her dad finds out and he's like "OMG NO U CAN HAS FRENDZ HEER!!" and she also can't come to Oakville 'cause she's grounded. So no Britt. I was supposed to talk to Amanda some time to plan something with her, myself, Adam, maybe others, this weekend but she aren't on MSN... So this weekend is looking pretty shitty already, especially since I really wanted to see Britt and Amanda... And I definitely can't see Britt and probably not Amanda.
Also, Britt said she was going to call me after dinner, but she still hasn't, so sadness... Hopefully her dad hasn't banned her from the phone too, or else I'll be incredibly depressed. Although if she did get banned from it, she'd still talk to me on the phone all the time, so no worries there.

I just got off the phone with Britt. After two hours. XD
That's pretty much all, except I kinda got a bit... I dunno the word, but Amanda was all pissed off at me for how I was being. I'm so sorry, Amanda... But she seems to be not mad at me now, since I'm not being like that anymore.
And how the title of this post ties in to the contents is the happy thought I have to sleep on. "Yeah, I love you." Britt said that, so I'm happy. And I'm maybe having some of my Morden friends over tomorrow, so a bit happier than normal happy.

Yeah, so I spent much of tonight trolling like a noob. It was fun though, because my logic beats people's beliefs.
Not much to say except this week has been absolute shit. Two things I'm thankful for, though, are that I get to talk to Britt all the time on the phone, although she keeps not being able to call me... And I thankful that I can talk to Amanda still.
Since I have the time, I'm going to list everything bad. Just after I open my window a bit... It's too hot in here. Okies. Better now. So!
1. Britt got in huge trouble... Partly my fault, even if she thinks it's entirely hers. This trouble includes...
2. Her banned from the computer.
3. Me not can going to semi with her.
4. Me not can see her at all for now.
5. No late-night chats with her. As a result of this...
6. I sleep like crap now.
7. I haven't had breakfast in days.
8. I had to go to Michigan.
9. My cousin wasn't supposed to be there but he was.
10. I got in trouble for a completely arbitrary reason.
11. My parents are taking away this laptop soon.
12. Amanda's sick. This has caused her to...
13. Amanda's not sleeping well. Also caused...
14. I can't see Amanda.
15. There's a bit of mixed good and badness her... Amanda is dating Scott.
16. Again, mix of good/bad. Amanda went on a date with Scott.
17. Britt continues to elude being a couple with me. Ah well. Just give it time, I suppose.
18. That Ben & Jerry's ice cream I bought in the States for the ride home melted in the car, so we put it in the freezer. It is now a brick.
19. I'm incredibly depressed right now.
20. I think I forgot to put my waffles in the freezer, so they might be stale by now...
21. Britt still thinks her getting banned was entirely her fault. It wasn't. I'm to blame too for forcing you to sneak out of bed, after you've been banned from the computer.
69. My regular methods of cheering myself up no longer work.

However, on the bright side...
1. Britt and I talk all the time. I get to hear her pretty voice and her laughs.
2. Amanda and I talk a bunch on MSN.
3. I can solve a Rubik's Revenge (4x4x4)
4. I'll probably get to see Britt and/or Amanda next weekend.
5. Britt now says anyway regularly! I feel very accomplished, and I'm proud of her.

As you might have guessed, I'm not happy. Not at all. So it started last night. I was just in bed waiting for Britt to come on MSN. She comes. We talk, and she's saying how it's pretty risky for her to be on the computer, so she has to be really careful. "Okies" I say. That's where me being an idiot starts. She says that if she disappears, it's because she's hiding. Alright, I say. No response. I figure she's taking Hitler kitty to the basement. Ten minutes pass. Still no response. "Britt?" I say. More minutes pass. I'm starting to worry a lot now. I try to tell myself a lie that her parents heard her locking the cat in the basement and she claimed that it was keeping her awake and had gone to bed, not willing to risk coming back down. This fails gigantically. By now I'm bawling my eyes out because I know something bad happened.
I talk to Amit for a while, since he's the only person online, and he's one of the five people I ever talk to on MSN. This calms me down a bit, but once he leaves, I had to think really happy (and hardly true) thoughts so I could calm down enough to sleep. And if my pillow had a neck, it would have been strangled last night.
When I woke up this morning I felt like crap. I didn't want to eat anything. Even if I tried to force myself to eat, I wouldn't. At lunch I was greeted by an email from Britt explaining that she got caught last night by her mom. Her punishment is that she (and Adam, lol) are now completely unable to go on the computer and she's not going to semi. I was really looking forward to that...
At least we can still talk on the phone, though. I called her at lunch and after school and we talked a bunch, which was fun. If my dad weren't in the room here, I'd be crying again because everything good that I have seems to get ruined... Amanda keeps having to do things which make me unable to see her, the other weekend Britt got stuck working so I couldn't see her or Amanda, this weekend my cousin who was not supposed to be there was there, I don't get to go to semi with Britt, I don't get to talk to Britt at night at all. Right now I'm sort of expecting something incredibly horrible (worse than the outcome of last night) to happen to me. At this point I think that would be only a friend of mine being like "omg i not ur frend no moar", or like, dying, or like, getting severely injured. Oh well... I'm not going to think about that at all.
Britt, remember that you can call me whenever you want, I'll always be happy to talk to you. Same goes for you, Amanda. In fact, please do call me. Often.
Thank God for music... Some lyrics from the song I'm listening to right now.

" Bad news comes don't you worry even when it lands
Good news will work its way to all them plans "

Just because music says it, I have to believe in that. This is my happy song, and it's all about when bad things happen, there's always something good that comes of it, even if you can't see it.

Yes, that's right. I'm home. Away from those bastard cousins of mine whom I want to kill slightly less than Britt wants to kill Adam right now. I actually got home around 6:30, but I'm writing this now!!
Anyway, right when I got home I called Britt so I could talk to her a bit before she went to art class. Turns out Adam hasn't been home enough for her to kill him. I was gonna call Amanda, but then it was dinner time so I didn't... I'll call her on Wednesday, I guess, since she's apparently going somewhere with Scott after school tomorrow. Sorry for not calling you today at around 4:00 like I said I would, but my parents decided to shop a bunch before we left America. Very sorry.
In happy news, I managed to come into possession of a Rubik's Revenge. It's like a regular Rubik's Cube, but it's 4x4x4 instead of 3x3x3. I can already solve it. Skills.
And more happy news is that Britt wants me to go to her semi with her, and my parents (mom at least) seems to be fine with it. So hooray! I have Friday and Saturday to look forward to, since I'll be going to Britt's on Saturday as well, and as will Amanda. I hate how long it's been since I've seen her... And it's only gonna be worse next week 'cause I won't know if I'll have to wait another seven weeks to see her again. I sure hope it isn't.
So now I'll wait her playing Advance Wars until Britt (hopefully) comes on MSN. It's going to be harder now, what with Adam telling their parents about our conversations at night. I wish I knew why he did that...

First and foremost, Amanda is now going out with Scott, a friend of hers. I'm very happy for her, but I'm still all like, bleh. 'Cause I miss being able to call her my girlfriend... Oh well. Hopefully she does better with Scott than she did with me.
And, I'm going to fucking murder my cousin by the time I leave tomorrow. So last night Britt and I were talking on MSN until 5:27, when she heard someone in the shower and decided it might be smart to go to bed now. I sleep. At around.... 10:00 or so, half an hour ago, my fucking douchebag cousin comes and rattles the doorknob to this door. It's locked, he knows that. I'm sleeping, he knows that. He continues being a fucking douche. Anyway, I just listen to music and drown out that little fucker before I have to crush his face with my fist. I'm considering the transformer for his Xbox 360 power cable, or at least hiding it incredibly well.
Also, with Britt. Recently Amanda has been telling me to ask her out. My two reasons or not wanting to: 1) She used to be going out with Sam, my old best friend. If I go out with her, it'll be pretty mean to him, even though he sucks. 2) I have little faith in a relationship with anyone, even Britt who I trust completely. THANK YOU AMANDA. Oh well. Britt assures me that if we were together, nothing would ever happen, so I'll just have to trust her on that. If I do decide to ask her out, I'm at least waiting until I'm back from Hell (Michigan). Hopefully I can get through it by playing Tetris and Advance Wars, talking on MSN and listening to music all constantly.
Meh. The way I see it, if I can put up with that fucker for the first day and a half without those things, then with them I should be invincible. Especially if I can actually bother myself to go to my parents when he's being a fucking annoying prick, although that never seems to do much.... And for some reason it's always me who gets the bad deal. Just because this kid is a fucking retarded ADD kid who was probably dropped on his head frequently as a child, he seems to never get in trouble for anything. His parents are fucking shit at discipline. And that's what grinds my gears.
So now I'm gonna wait here with music until Britt or Amanda come on MSN....

So last night was like, the exact opposite of the night before that.  So I was talking to Larissa (which I haven't done for a long time) and some time during the conversation she said that Amanda had come online. Oh wait. No she isn't. WTF? So I ask her to tell Ama to unblock me. I wait a while, still no Ama. I have Larissa ask again, and Ama says that she has too many windows open and she'll do it in a bit. Fine. More than half an hour passes and she still hasn't unblocked me. I'm now talking to Adam and Britt, having them relay messages between Ama and I. Ama makes several excuses, but unblocks me once I yell at her. Hooray. One excuse was that she was going to bed soon, but she was still online more than an hour after that. At that time I comment about this, and she doesn't really have a reply. After a bit of talking, I tell her that I have a sorta important question for her. I'm not gonna post it here (as much as I trust Britt) since it's kinda personal, but she said yes to it, which was the good answer. A bit later she says she's going to bed now, but I have a feeling she just blocked me.
So anyway, after a bit, Adam goes to bed so it's just Britt and I talking, with her actually talking through her microphone. It was nice hearing her voice, especially when she said "Heh?" incredibly cutely, and then she got mad at me for saying that it was cute. So we talked until almost 4:00. By then her grammar was a bit bad from all the tiredness and she was yawning a whole bunch, so I made her sleep. And we decided that we'd have to give Sam an intervention so he stops avoiding the Anians because it's just getting ridiculous now. And Ama's being all Sam-like by avoiding me now. But still, the answer to my question and my chat with Britt made the night be super enjoyable.
One thing on the bad side though is that Britt got into a bit of trouble for her parents, so there's a small chance we might not do anything next Saturday, but I'm going to be optimistic about it, since it's Britt planning it and not Sam or Amanda.

So yesterday I was talking to Britt and Ama (Britt was at Ama's house) and I was switching between them constantly. So while I was talking to Ama, she said one thing that make me feel like dying. I asked her why we didn't do anything as a couple when we were together. "Because I realized I didn't like you anymore before we got to do anything." Just because of that one thing, I got no sleep at all until about 5:00.
And after that I realized something that sucks beyond everything. If I'm ever sad or whatever, the only way to talk to someone is on MSN. I can't talk to anyone in person about that kind of stuff because the only people I trust enough live too far away. Especially since just being with either of them is the thing I'd like most in the world, aside from Ama and I going back to just being friends like we were.
Oh well... And now I don't feel like getting out of bed at all, so I'm gonna be here all day.... Please, Britt and Ama, if you can, talk to me because I feel like crap right now.

I need to clean up my iPod playlist soon. There are a bunch of songs there that make me sad, for example, "Gonna Leave You", by Queens of the Stone Age. And these songs used to be so good, and now I can't listen to them or else I get uber depressed.
On a happy note, however, I have a PS1 emulator on my computer that can play all of my pirated games, so I can now play stuff like Medievil, Brave Fencer Musashi, Tenchu, and MUCH MORE!! Hooray!
And also I'm going to Britt's next weekend, just because she practically begged me to. It's kinda odd, because before now I've never had a friend who would actually be upset if I didn't come to something. It's nice being wanted. Hopefully Sam will be going too, 'cause he ditches every single time. It'll be nice to see Britt, and not just because she owes me like, five hugs at least. I lost count.

Right now I really don't want to see Amanda, so I don't think I'll be going to Britt's next Saturday. Although I do very much want to see the others, I just don't want to see Amanda at all. I might end up changing my mind after Britt yells at me for this, but oh well. Right now, not coming.
And Amanda, as much as I don't want to see you then, for which I'm being an idiot, I'd very much like to talk to you, so if you read this go on MSN 'cause I'll probably be on all day.

I feel pretty crappy right now, what with stuff that's been going on lately. As I already said, to start of my marvelous March Break, Amanda broke up with me. Then I had to get needles on Tuesday, which I hate, and I had to get blood taken from me this morning, for which I had to wake up at 7:00. And yesterday Britt told me that we probably won't be doing anything this Saturday, which I'm pissed at, but it's not her fault. So I don't get to see Britt, I don't get to see Amanda, and I am so very lonely right now since Britt's at work and I haven't talked to Amanda for like, three or four days and I have no idea where she is.
However, I'm trying to be optimist that something good will come after all of this shit that's happened. Britt said she's gonna try to book all of next weekend (including Friday when we don't have school) off of work so we can do something on one of those three days. But it'll probably just be me going again, unless I'm lucky enough that Amanda comes. I'm not counting on it, though, since she's let me down too many times.

Insomnia is fun! Or at least staying up late is. Sunday I stayed up until 2:00 or so talking with Amanda on MSN, Monday I stayed up until 3:15 talking with Britt, and last night until 4:12 with Britt. I have a feeling I should be letting Britt sleep. She's usually awake by 8:00, but it's 11:30 and she's still not awake (or at least not on MSN)... Meh, tonight I'll let her get to sleep by 2:00.
UPDATE!! 11:40 - Britt wakes up
So yesterday was fun. I had Kenny, Sam and Mike over for a bit. Kenny came at 7:00, but Sam and Mike didn't come until 9:00. Sam brought his Wii, so we played SSBB in BLACK AND WHITE because we're cool, and 'cause Sam kinda threw out his AV cables for his Wii, and the component cables are black and white if you try to plug them into an AV thing. But it was still fun, and you don't even notice it after a while.
They left at 11:00, and then I went upstairs to chat with Britt until 4:12 in the morning.
OH. AND THE BEST PART OF YESTERDAY. I GOT TWO NEEDLES!! WOOHOO!! Britt was so happy for me. I just had to brag to her about it. Speaking of which, we (Amanda, myself, others) need to help Britt get over her dislike of medicine and whatnot, and fear of hospitals.

So I got pretty bored and I considered what I would do if I could have three wishes, with which I could do anything.
First wish: I wish that Amanda would stop being so down on herself regarding her physical appearance. This is pretty self explanatory. Amanda's an idiot and refuses to listen to people who try to get her to realize that she's pretty.
Hey, I just pulled apart the two halves of my grilled cheese and there was like, massive cheese in there. It was delicious.
Second wish: I wish that Sam would stop being a giant douche. He's never posting on Ani anymore, he keeps ditching our plans with the Anians, and he's totally avoiding Britt. I'm pretty sure he ditched us (Britt, Adam and I) yesterday so he could play the new Super Smash Bros. game all day. It's a good game, but still. QUIT BEING A DOUCHE. And quit avoiding Britt. Even though Britt's gonna be somewhat mad at me after this... The two of you were so much happier when you weren't being an idiot.
Third wish: I wish my brothers would start being proper brothers. They're like, the biggest assholes and racists ever, even though they think they're black. I find it's best not to question them... But really, it would be so nice if they treated me with any niceness or respect ever.
So those are my wishes. If I had a fourth, it'd be that I have another grilled cheese, 'cause the other one is gone now... But a serious fourth wish is that Amanda doesn't ditch us this Saturday like she has THREE TIMES ALREADY. Even though she pisses me off, I still want to see her, especially after a deal she made in our post-midnight chat last night. Five days...

As you might have guessed, this post is about the past few days. Starting with... Tuesday, maybe. Dunno. Anyway, it was around then that I started to think that Amanda might be mad at me, or avoiding me. "No, that's stupid. Amanda wouldn't do that." I told myself. Until Friday, nothing particularly special happened (and if it did, I can't remember). So Amanda starts talking to me on MSN. Apparently she has to tell me something, but it's hard for her to say. After a guessing game which I failed at, she tells me that she's been avoiding me the past few days to make me hate her so we'll break up. She avoids me so she doesn't become like Sam and Britt, where Britt probably still has feelings for Sam, but Sam's being a giant douche and he's left Ani and he's not really talking to her, so she's given up on him. She doesn't want to turn into her dad (I don't remember the specifics, it's in my MSN logs on the other computer) and whatever. At first I'm obviously sad, but then I'm just mad at her. Especially for one thing she said. "I'm sorry that you sorta wasted two years of your life liking me." When she said that, I just wanted to kick her in the face. NOT JOKING. My life isn't being wasted by loving you. I'll love you almost no matter what, even though right now I'm still very pissed at you. You probably know the reason. If not, it's because of your self-esteem issues. You have amazing qualities about yourself. You're pretty, you're a great writer, you're nice, you're fun to be with, and plenty of other stuff. However, any time I tell you that you're pretty, you immediately insist that you aren't. When you're like that, I wonder why I even like you at all. I promised I'd stop bugging you about it, but I want you to know something. You have good friends who care about you and want you to be happy. They'll tell you anything to see you smile. FUCK THAT. I'm not one of those friends. I tell you the truth, and the truth is that you're being a fucking idiot with your self-esteem issues, so stop being so fucking stupid. You probably don't believe me because you're a stupid, stubborn bitch, but whatever. You need to understand and accept this instead of thinking the worst about yourself.
Whatever. Enough of that. Saturday was boring and full of me going from hating Amanda, not hating her, and back to hating her again. Several times in one day. It's because of her self-esteem issues, as well as me thinking she's being an idiot, thinking that us breaking up will make us less like Sam and Britt. I really don't care right now, so I'm just going to try to trust you that this will work out for the better. I hope it does, because I want us to always be friends, no matter how much of an idiot you can be.
Today I went to Britt's. Just me. I offered to give Sam a ride, but he apparently didn't want to go. I guess he was playing SSBB all day, knowing him. Or fapping, which is more likely. It was fun at Britt's anyway. We (Britt, Adam and I) played some games. I'm not gonna bother listing them all. After Adam left for some staff meeting for his new job, Britt and I played some more games. And her Hitler kitty jumped on the kitchen table and knocked over a glass thing with flowers in it, making a giant spill. Britt got some towels and I helped her clean it up despite her saying not to help. Britt should know by now that I do whatever I want, regardless of what (most) people tell me. After that she played Rule of Rose (which I technically helped find in the King Arthur case. Blame Adam.) while I watched her beat little imps over the head with a lead pipe while a dog was just barking at them. Apparently me being there was good luck because she got farther than she ever had before. Hooray for me! I soon realized it was almost 5:00, so I had to leave soon. Britt loaned me three more books on top of the two I'd already borrow, one of which I returned. So we were just sitting in the kitchen in a somewhat awkward silence until my dad picked me up. And she showed me her broom, which was smaller than I'd expected her weapon against Adam to be. When I got home, my mom asked if I had fun, and I said yeah, and I eventually mentioned that Britt and I had been there alone. My mom was shocked a bit, but I assured her that nothing bad happened, although Britt apparently had glass in her hand for over two hours before noticing it. And then Sam called to see if I wanted to come to his place then, so I'm like yeah, sure. Why not. I didn't come for about an hour and a half, but once I got there, we played SSBB until 11:00. We made a custom map called Fight Club which is basically a small box, and I totally pwned in it. Go me.
Anyway, that's the past few days for you... You don't really have to read all of that, but if you're Amanda, I suggest you read the first paragraph and stop being an idiot, although I somehow doubt the latter will happen any time soon, if ever. And now I'm tired, so I'm gonna read for a while before I try sleeping.

Subs. I had a substitute teacher in science and history today, the only periods where I really pay attention. What this means is that I was able to totally slack off all day and play with my Rubik's Cube. EXCEPT FOR FOOD CLASS!!! I was playing with it, then Jason, who I'm teaching to solve it, comes by and says "Hey, let me see it." Despite me insisting that he could see it while it was in my hands, it went into his and he (miraculously) finished the first layer. Properly, too. However, he holds it ON TOP OF THE DESK RIGHT WHERE THE TEACHER CAN SEE IT and the teacher TOOK IT AWAY. So now I have to KILL Jason.
Nazis. In history, despite having a sub, we were given a worksheet with questions to answer using our textbooks. Most of the questions had to do with Hitler and Nazis since we're starting the WWII unit. For most of the class I watched Happy Tree Friends, and then I looked at the sheet and wrote down some bullshit answers to the questions, since the sheet wouldn't actually be handed in, and I'd do the questions for real later. One of the questions was what was the Holocaust and how can another one be prevented? Well, the Holocaust was when Hitler sent all of the Jews to Concentration Camps, a notable one being Auschwitz. How another one can be prevented? Here's a bullshit, although somewhat true, answer. Eliminate every religion and culture, leaving only people of any race without any weird beliefs that there's a dude  that lives on the clouds who can do anything but chooses to do nothing, or that people who have led a "good" life go to live with this cloud man and people who have "sinned" go to live with a red guy with horns who has actually killed much less people than this so-called omni-benevolent cloud dweller.
Snow. It's snowing right now. If I hadn't just gotten out of the shower to see that it's snowing, I'd be outside frolicking in it right now. If I'm lucky, tomorrow will be a snow day, which would be so totally pwned.
Also, a while ago Amanda suggested that I should have an idol, someone I look up to or strive to be like in some way. I do believe I've found an idol, but their identity can remain a secret for now, 'cause I know she'd (maybe) be wondering a bit why I'd choose them as an idol.
Sorry for the wall of text, but it's all I can do right now to keep me from being incredibly bored, short of going all the way downstairs to play video games. I played a bunch of guitar earlier though, which was fun. I can now (mostly) play Don't Panic, by Coldplay. Go me.

I dunno. Today I've felt happy for no apparent reason, which makes me even happier. Nothing special happened today, I'm just happy. Hooray. Usually it takes a long (and very interesting) conversation with Britt or a fun argument with Amanda to make me this happy, but neither of those things happened and I don't care! HAPPY!
There was some history assignment I did last week. We had it for about a week (at least) and I did the entire thing at lunch on the day it was due while talking to Britt on MSN and I got an 80% on it. OUTRAGEOUS!
And I felt writey, so I'm starting a really bad story, but nobody's allowed to read it yet, 'cause it's a secret, And now I'm tired, so I'll read that book Britt loaned me for an hour or so, then sleep.

Going to Britt's today was really fun. It was definitely the most fun I've had for a week. God I hate the week... It totally sucks.
But anyway, fun. We played video games, we say Vantage Point (awesome car chase scene) and then played more video games and had a crappy snowball fight. It was crappy because you had to basically find chunks of snow and throw them, or else you ended up throwing powder. We (Britt and I, maybe not Adam so much) were soaked by the end of it. But it was fun.
And now I'm bored... Incredibly tired, even though I can't sleep. I'm gonna go read Thief of Time so I can get onto those books Britt loaned me quickly. As awesome as Discworld is, I really need to read something other than it.